Make A Change... Kill Yourself - VIII

Ever since the dawn of time I have been here
I have seen every bit of grit in the desert
I have seen every patch of moss in the swamps and forest
I have seen life unfold, the beauty and magnificence of nature
and it’s uncompromising cruelty of selection

I have seen every species evolve from their origin
and conclude that man is the most primitive form of life
I have seen them destroy...
I have seen them rape and ravage each other and nature
I have seen them rise and convince themselves they are strong
I have witnessed them fall, for they all wither soon enough.

I have observed humanity throughout time,
and I have yet to see the beauty within it
Humanity holds, like no other animal,
endless possibilities with their intelligence so rarely used
Yet it is filthy and primitive.
With a narrow-minded perspective on this life and the universe.

Man seeks individual joy and self-fulfillment
through items that hold no value
Governed by greed, man has constructed images.
Calling them gods. Calling them good. Calling them real.

Nothing destroys me more, than the reality of this.
It gives me joy to know that soon humanity will crumble and rot.
That this world shall flourish again.
This gives me solace as I close my eyes and enter my end…
I will dream of the death of humanity.
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For as long as I remember
During stormy nights I've pictured myself on a raft
In pitch blackness in the middle of the ocean
Sky-high waves and thunder
Winds that can be felt to the bone
I battle for survival against the forces of nature
As the waves swallow me whole
I succumb... I give in
I can't see anything, but I drink, oh how I drink
My thirst is insatiable, and my body can take no more
Yet I drink till I can hold no more
What has been a lifelong dream, shall be a dream no more
As I wander into the sea
The waves are no match for my many fantasies
The cold water soothes me
The waves embrace and cradle me
To feel such warmth and comfort after so many years of torment
I want more!
I drink and I'm cradled
For once I'm loved
I drink and I drink with a maddening lust
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I’m on a downward spiral and I’m falling fast.
Losing touch with reality and imagination.
Perspective is fleeting, I suspect I’m slightly going mad.

The signs are all right there to be read.
Make of it what you desire.
Interpretation is subjective.
As I sit here contemplating my next move,
I feel other presences here with me.

And they whisper my name....
Are the shadows real?
Are the whispers?

In the dead of the night, I hear the voices clearly.
They whisper my name and caress me with promises of silence and darkness.
Are they really there?
Only they can lead me beyond
In the back of my mind (where there’s still a shred of reason left)
it sounds discordant and speculative

I have nothing to hold onto and life is pulling me down.
"Fuerit morietur hac nocte" they whisper to me from the shadows

I am falling so fast
I see lights passing me by
Distorted shadows in every flash
I know that I'm on the way to my end

And I welcome the terminal freedom of death.
I finally understood the voices.
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There’s no light at the end of the tunnel There’s no exit to the tunnel I walk alone and in darkness. It’s all I ever wanted.... solitude. The light shall never touch my skin again, nor shall I ever feel the warmth of the sun. I shall never see the stars on a clear winter night. No more shall rain nor snow fall upon my skin Never again shall I feel the warmth of a human touch, Nor the feeling of disgust it always gave me. My physical being was left to rot. I chose an easy escape The noose shall tear my head from my body as time passes by. My body will disintegrate slowly... And after a while, nothing will remain. I was no more than a speck of dust in the wind. An echo of a faint whisper I never wished for any of it. I wish to be forgotten. In life I walked among cursed beings Now I will walk alone in oblivion forever. Trapped beyond the living and the dead. Finally freedom

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