Animårum - Vikalpa

Kept in the dark
Left to suffer abuse and pain
Can’t see the marks
Seclude myself, dissociate
Lost in the dark
Begging for the scythe
Dying to erase that night

After vampire’s kiss
It’s clear what I missed
Impending
Impending devastation
Labyrinth, no rope
How can there be hope?

How long can I bury my sorrow?
Too long
Can’t wait
Until
Can’t wait ‘til tomorrow
Pain is all
All that’s left inside
I’m hollow

Kept in the dark
Left to suffer abuse and pain
Can’t see the marks
Seclude myself, dissociate
Lost in the dark
Begging for the scythe
Dying to erase that night

I counted oncoming lights to seal away
The blight of tomorrow’s isolation

Impending
Impending devastation
Labyrinth, no rope,
How can there be hope?

It was when I could think only of killing myself
That I began to look at things differently
Transfigured by pain, by neglect
By betrayal, by abuse
Until I could feel nothing
A profound loneliness
Rooted in my worst humiliations
My most hated insecurities
Sleepless nights grieving
Drowning in an ocean of shame
Until I was practically begging to die
No matter how I cried
Even unto the brink of suicide
The darkness cared not

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Solace in solitude
Senseless bliss
Sorrow in ecstasy
Is what makes me human

Emotionless life leads cultured machines
Desire for pain consumes what I see
Media-induced injection of lies
Erases the feelings from our demise
Desensitization is for the weak
It’s a religion, salvation I seek
From these opiates that taint my blood

These pills numb me
False self drowns me
Contrived to feel no distress
Elation becomes futile

Narcotic bane tears my sanity
Disoriented thoughts are all I receive
Captive
Notion

These city lights blind me
Divide me
Confine me
Please take me away
Please take me away from my mind

If I only knew
What it’s like to fear
To loathe
To belong
If I only knew

Don’t I belong in this ideal, ideal world?
Sentiments I’ve lost drive me insane

I can only dream of a cured mind
We have blocked all the signs of purity
The lies I inhale
These feelings I’ve lost won’t be found
The world has eradicated them
Modern day plague

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Lost souls enslaved by systems
Enforced desires
Pain is the only thing I've known
But I still bear the scars of hidden chains (of hidden chains)  Открыть страницу с текстом

Life everlasting frightens me
Lost the need for emotion
What’s the point of it?
If there isn’t an end
Do I really want to live forever?
Nothing will ever be the same

Time for me to let go
Me to let go
This is not who I am
Nothing lasts forever
Trust the universe
Solace is all we need

Nobody knows where I will go
But I have made up my mind
Put an end to this concept
Free from control I can breathe
Flow with the wind
And find solace

Time for me to let go
Me to let go
This is not who I am
Nothing lasts forever
Trust the universe
Solace is all we need

Past and future are illusions
The only thing that’s certain is now
Acceptance brings clarity

Take me away to where I belong
Everything comes to an end
And now must I
Now must I
Ways of life shouldn’t be
Dictated by those who
Can’t understand it

We were meant for something more
But I don’t know
Where it will take me
At least I’ll be alive

Release

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A world without human connection
So close, yet so far, from what we really know
Why can’t I remember belonging?
Augmented reality becomes simulation

Lost souls enslaved by systems, condemned to one purpose
Enforced desires, it’s the only thing I’ve known
But I still bear the scars
Scars of hidden chains

Bleeding in a world of broken souls
Automation has gained control
Instinct manipulated
Death is nonexistent
But fear still drowns me

Lost souls enslaved by systems, condemned to one purpose
Enforced desires, it’s the only thing I’ve known
But I still bear the scars
Scars of hidden chains

Life’s monotonous,
Were we meant for this?
Tainted dreams vanish
Choice is obsolete

Free from death
But I still feel dead
Free from death
But I still feel dead

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