Banished - Deliver Me Unto Pain (1993)

Please god hold out your hand
and keep me safe in this troubled
and cruel world
I know as long as I have you
here in my heart I'll not die alone
Come Satan, spread your wings
and make me unto the path of riches
fortune and fame and lead me unto
the pleasure of the forbidden flesh
that I may live my life for you

I can't believe in any god
that's never been there for me

I can't stand it when I see someone
put their life in some god's hands
and hope everything's going to be alright

You think God's going to help your life?

I keep myself strong
God's mind control
manipulation of the soul

Keep yourself strong

At the time of the inquisitions, I was just a mere child
still asleep in my mother's womb
unknowing this was to be my tomb
I could feel the hate and rage on the outside
understood was the fear in my mother's mind
adrenalin racing through my veins
I knew my fate was to be the same
anticipation of their deeds
twisted acts to fill their needs
draw confession by any means
torture and kill in the name of their deity
I knew I had to escape her skin
tom somehow come from within

Drowned her, I could hear their screams
drowned her, I could hear their flames

Burn her, I could hear their screams
burn her, I could feel their screams

As her flesh cracks open and I fall
to the ground, pray to your fucking gods
that I don't die because my power will sour

I've just got to escape
To set myself free
I've just got to escape
From my fleshy prison
I've just got to escape
From my earthly
I've just got to escape
From my prison

I just have to cast out the flesh
And release my soul that's been caged
For so very long to be rid of my torturous life
To break from this cast in which some things
Enslave me

Cast out... the flesh

Can't you see that sorrow runs my life
Hatred surrounds my skin
Got to break the skin to est my soul free
Got to leave this earth
To be dead is where I long to be

Break the skin, to set my soul free
Cast out the flesh, long live the soul

I just have to cast out the flesh and
Release my soul that's caged for so
Very long, to be rid of this torturous life
To break from this cast in which
Something's enslaved

Long live the soul

Can't you see that sorrow runs my life
Hatred surrounds my skin
It can't fucking hold me down
Have to break the skin
To set my soul free
To rid myself of life
Fucking dead is where I long to be

Break the skin to set my soul free
Cast out the flesh, lovg live the soul

Cut my flesh I bleed
Know my heart I'll cry
In my soul I feel
That the flesh must die

My soul was awakened
When the pain was brought
Mocked and feared
When relief was sought

Hatred and pain make
The soul grow fonder
Of death, or is it mankind?
I say hate and pain
Make the flesh weak
And the soul strong
Brush my heart
And you will find
Callous and scars
Look inside you will find
I long to gain liberation
Of the soul

Deliver my unto pain I say
Strengthen my soul's curiosity
Though I long to escape this place
I need the pain to show me the way
Chastise and scorn me, flog or crucify
Sink your implements deep into
My heart, mind, flesh
But you will never take my life

I'll not die by your hand
I'll not die by your hand

My blood will cleanse my flesh
My blood will cleanse my flesh

Daily the scourgae of the Earth
Chaos brings forth from the womb
Young souls manifest in the flesh
I did not ask to be, but then suppressed
Can a young mind really change
If it's already been altered at such an age?
Or is it ordained
That Its lifetime thought be deranged?

Daily haunted by past experiances
That cloud the mind
Horrid recollections
Daydreams not so sublime
So now my thoughts are changed
Most wander towards homicide
Some experience flesh
And some the curiosity of death

I try to change mty thought everyday
Try to break the cycle, try to change the chain
I look in my heart to find a new
But confusion is all I know

Daydreams not so sublime
Most wander towards homicide
And some the curiosity of death

My thoughts beat down upon
Me like a heavy stone
Even if they break my flesh
They can't break my soul
Maybe if I was born
At another time

Why must I be trapped inside?
feign contentment so not to be deprived
took moments to learn your game
and try to make believe I was sane

Fools, how could you believe
I should be set free

I knew it wouldn't be long until I could
invade your mind
to rape your private thoughts
and summon fear buried deep inside

Enter the confines
walk among my dreams
enter the confines
reside within my mind

Feign contentment so not to be deprived
and try to make you believe I was sane

I knew it wouldn't be long until I could
invade your mind
to rape your private thoughts
and summon fear buried deep inside

Now I'm free to walk along the streets
to re-enact all my fantasies
my darkest secrets now have been released
perhaps now you realize I should
have been destroyed

Curse it. Is this the end of a tragic life
or just the beginning of a souls new
quest? with eyes wide I wonder

Shall I be embraced by Christ's hands?
or will I be greeted by the dark one
in my afterlife if there is one?
or when you're dead are you dead?

Since I was a young child I longed
to know what was on the other side

Fuck the flesh when you're dead
I need to know who inherits the soul

Never succeeded in my quest
for the knowledge after the taste of death
just a peek, a glimpse at the other side
to relinquish the fear, to ease my mind

My grasp fading from life going towards death
why can't I feel ease?

As you clench your fists
you know your time approaches
blood running rampant through your veins
raise your head to gasp your last goodbyes
in anticipation of your death
last sound you hear, flat line

Fuck the flesh when you're dead
I need to know who inherits the soul

Fuck the flesh when you're dead
I need to know who inherits the soul

Do the scars go so deep
that I can't see through my eyes?
alone in my sleep
no one can hear my cries
one regret from the past
that I not free myself
then and be done with it
the pain lies in the past

My scars are not on the surface
they go down deep inside
my pain along they bring
I can not wait to die

The souls of 10,000 unborn children
cry out in my sleep, it's not so bad
come along and walk with us and be free
free yourself they tell me
you're not alone you're not alone
pain walks with the flesh
pain walks with the flesh

Oh! I can't wait, my freedom will come soon
maybe my scars have blinded me from my mortality
but they can not blind me from what's inside of me
I know inside, my pain is real

Inside I know my pain is real

From the time you're concieved
You've been skinned to suffer
So why crawl among the living?
I long to writh in souls, souls

As tears of blood run down my skin
As tears of blood run down my skin

If flesh could talk would you listen?
No! How could you
When you can't even see
The tears that could my eyes?
Feel my hate, taste my pain as I cry
Am I insane?

Skinned, skinned
As tears of blood run down

Skinned, skinned
Rejoice as tears of blood run down

Do I embrace the could?
or do I cast aside the body
with his arms spread wide before me
as if begging for God?
do I bend down and try to console?
or do I just spit upon him
as he wastes his last breath begging
for mercy?

Something from inside beckons me

I don't know what it is that calls me
to commit these grisly acts of savagery
maybe it's just my hate toward humanity

When I open my eyes to the world
all I see is pain, all pain

Another trophy of forbidden flesh skin
is it breeding, or does it come from within?

Something from inside my subconscious or
even my conscious mind break free from my grasp
I'm losing control

Something from inside beckons me

There have been times when they're pierced reality
how long will it be before the dreams destroy

Originally on Baphomet "The Dead Shall Inherit", 1992

Through deviant eyes do I see
lives of pain and misery
break free from the norm
see through the deceit

Blinded throughout life
incomprehencible strife
childhood halvete
use your eyes to see

Seeing inly what you're told
devlate them your scold
relieve the mental strain
blinded never again

Take a look through the eyes of reality
and tell me what you see

Lies, anger, hatred
are all my eyes can claim
since the begining
brought in a world of pain

Blood from confusion
spilled day by day
as long as we live our lives
and dwell in tiranyc reign

I can't wait to break free
from the pain that's inside of me
a mental catacomb I'll not decend
so I'll struggle until the end

Lies, pain, desease, reign,
strive, kill, mankind

I can't wait to break free
from the pain that's inside of me
a mental catacomb I'll not decend
so I'll struggle until the end

Originally on Baphomet "The Dead Shall Inherit", 1992

I have walked through the valley of the death
I have feld the cold grip of death
being beckoned towards the dark
in the velley there is no light

I heve tasted
the pain and suffering
of the unborn child
and desease ridden flesh
the slaughtered and unwanted
crying out in torment

Their cries and anguish scare my soul
a dream or is it death I do not know

I thaught I vas sefe from the pain
but the suffering stil remains
put into a macabre life past
eternal molestation is where I'm cast

The pain and suffering of whitch I have felt
was not of the innocent but of the guilty ones
this pease of horror
and etarnal suffering
built for reprisal
against the vile

I cant wait until I'm dead