Sorry... - Accepting Loneliness

Since i was young the kids at school bullied me
i was antisocial and closed deep into myself
each day that passed was suffering
there was no space for me to be

the years had passed and my mental illness grew
my sick thoughts and ideas were the only source of joy
i had twisted fantasies of every person i met
until my life ended, a lost train without return Открыть страницу с текстом

Every single person i have met
makes my life harder
every dream i had fades away
and I've been lead into a deadlock

the only solution is the razor
deep inside my veins
each scar for every person i know
making negativity my pleasure

i have social phobia
i am scared of relationships
i am anxious for tomorrow Открыть страницу с текстом

You were my friend
we were planning stuff together
everything was pure and innocent
until that night, you got me drunk

you looked at me in a strange way
you acted selfish and since then...
everything changed forever
nothing was the same

the guys were telling me how lucky i was
but my feelings were different
you betrayed our relation and our past
for a single moment of pleasure

you asked me if you could touch me
everything went so fast
until the moment i came
now i am alone and disgusted Открыть страницу с текстом

i am feeling anxious and stressed all the time
i have this pressure deep in my stomach
my heart beats fast and heavy like an elephant's step

isolated in the silence of my room
listening to my heart that is about to blow
there is no way to stop it, there are no problems to fix
i am anxious for nothing, i don't see the point of living Открыть страницу с текстом

Stop provoking me pain
so much mental and physical pain
iv been out in the streets for days
trying to avoid seeing you

iv been mad talking to myself
walking to nowhere
all my life is a bad memory
and never gets better

stop hitting me
i cannot handle it anymore
I've had enough of your violence
my body is full of marks,
I've had enough of your love Открыть страницу с текстом