Nylist - Odd

I'm struggling for life
I wish someone would save me
Life in my eyes
I wish someone would save me
Life in my eyes
I wish someone would save me Открыть страницу с текстом

A new day
Nothing is safe
I wake up
I can't focus
I give up
What the fuck is my purpose?
Is this the day to take it all away?

Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything

A new day
Nothing is safe
I wake up
I can't focus
I give up
What the fuck is my purpose?
Is this the day to take it all away?

Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything

Taking away everything
I want to be the one to give up
Out of luck
I don't give a fuck
I've had enough with this life
What the fuck got me stuck in this mess?
I want to be the one to give up
Out of luck
I don't give a fuck
I've had enough with this life
What the fuck got me stuck in this mess?

I wake up, can't focus, can't breathe
Wake up, can't focus, can't breathe

Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything
Give it up, give it up, give it up, give it up
Taking away everything

Would you watch me die?
A new day
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Their lives intertwined
Their deaths were aligned
They left nothing behind

Driven to psychological distress
Driven to always being depressed
Driven to thoughts that could not be expressed
Driven to a need to escape
Driven to a need to escape
Escape!

Stressed to depressed to the deepest of rest

Help them up again
Help them up and then, drag them down again
Help them up again
Help them up and then, drag them down
If it was up to me, you wouldn't be under the dirt
Set free
If it was up to me, you wouldn't be under the dirt
Set free

Driven to psychological distress
Driven to always being depressed
Driven to thoughts that could not be expressed
Driven to a need to escape

Their lives intertwined
Their deaths were aligned
But they left... Открыть страницу с текстом

Your purpose is just worthless now
All you seek is the love we used to have

Mindless waste of space
Can't help but show your face
And try to get me going so you can see that
I wanna rip your pretty heart out
Do things to you that we've dreamt of
I wanna rip your pretty heart out
Spit right in your fucking face!

All I want is to do the things we've dreamt of
All I want is you to tell me that you liked it
All you want is to fuck and abuse yourself
All you want is to run away from

All of the problems you've been avoiding
Throughout the years of self abuse
Just know, you'll never find your purpose
If you keep on spending your time
Thinking about the noose
All of the problems you've been avoiding
Throughout the years of self abuse

Why this?
I can show you why our lives are fucking pointless
And filled with self abuse... Why?!

Broken glass for all the self lacerations
Broken glass for all the self lacerations

Why can't you understand that I
Prefer to live this world without
A dumb bitch filled with ecstasy
I'd walk out as you hit the floor
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When can I leave this insane disbelief?
I keep drowning, and drowning, and drowning, and drowning
So when can I breathe with this pain I receive?
I keep drowning, and drowning, and drowning

So crowded by this weakness
Claustrophobic with constant stress
Breathe
When can I leave?
When can I breathe? Breathe

Existing inconsistently
Why do I stare at my hands?
Am I just dreaming? Losing the feeling?
When can I leave this nightmare?
When can I leave this nightmare?
Existing inconsistently
Why do I stare at my hands?
Am I just dreaming? Losing the feeling?

Rendered through this diminished path
Strangled for every second alive in this world
When can I leave this nightmare?
Existing inconsistently without a care
When can I leave this nightmare?
Never to be released from this nightmare

Break these fucking walls!
I think I'm going insane... Help!
I think I'm going insane... Help!
I think I'm going insane... Help!
I think I'm going insane... Help!
I think I'm going insane

When can I leave this insane disbelief?
I keep drowning, and drowning, and drowning, and drowning
So when can I breathe with this pain I receive?
I keep drowning, and drowning, and drowning

So crowded by this weakness
Claustrophobic with constant stress
Breathe
When can I leave?
When can I breathe?

Existing inconsistently
Why do I stare at my hands?
Am I just dreaming? Losing the feeling?
When can I leave this nightmare?
When can I leave this nightmare?
Existing inconsistently
Why do I stare at my hands?
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My soul leaves
That corpse used to be me
No memory
When was my last breath?
My soul fucking leaves me!

Lifeless skin
Bleeding through my eyes
No memory of who I used to be
Look from within and you'll see the helpless cries
I've been waiting for this dead end

Our lives are pointless
We turn to fucking nothing
We're all just worthless
And turn to fucking nothing

What is it like to fucking die?! Открыть страницу с текстом

Fuck today, fuck tomorrow
Lately this life has been unbearable
Wash my mind so I find a place to be safe
Wash away everything to replace
The thoughts of not knowing what to do with myself
But I can't help feeling like the world is crushing my soul
When I try, I want to escape from this place and only see black for when I die

Suicide is freedom
From this prison cell that I call home
Counting the days
How many screams for help will it take to leave this place?
Give me a sign, suicide hotline
will it be fucking fine, or have I crossed the line?

How many times have I died?
Never forget that we are all temporary

Fuck today, fuck tomorrow
Lately this life has been unbearable
Wash my mind so I find a place to be safe
Wash away everything to replace
The thoughts of not knowing what to do with myself
But I can't help feeling like the world is crushing my soul
When I try, I want to escape from this place and only see black for when I die

Suicide is freedom
From this prison cell that I call home
Counting the days

Playing innocent
I'm not innocent...
Playing innocent
All the shit that I've done
I'm not innocent
All the shit that I've done
I've got no where to run

A stranger to my own dreams
A stranger to my own dreams

In my dreams I'm smashing my head into the wall
In my dreams I'm smashing my head into the wall Открыть страницу с текстом

No hesitation of putting you through indescribable misery
With this violent perception
You'll lose your innocence

Just waiting for the moment
You weren't waiting for the momment
Now that you've lost your possession
All of your limbs are losing circulation
You're all tied up, and now you're fucked

You are fucked!
Accept the blade as it slides
Abusing all your insides

Your mutilated and raped corpse
Abused to feel your insides

Now you're free
Now you're free
Now you're free
Now you're free
Now you're free

Blood stained bedsheets
You were left there for days
You were left there as a fucking slave

What's left is a crime scene
Where the walls are covered in red
Now you're free
Mutilated
Now you're free

Now you're free
Now you're free
Now you're free
Now you're free
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Things will only get worse, so calm the fuck down
I can't fall asleep with these images
They won't stop stabbing my scars
I can't fall asleep
Put me to fucking sleep

Once again, this clouded mind is lost
Hopelessly trembling from the starvation and self harm

Close your eyes and sink deeper than fear
Take control, or make all of this disappear
No different from yesterday
No soul under the skin
No different from yesterday
No soul, No soul, No soul

No soul, No soul
Empty out my heart and taste
The last drop of my blood
The last drop of my blood

Once again, this clouded mind is lost
Hopelessly trembling from the starvation and self harm

Close your eyes and sink deeper than fear
Take control, or make all of this disappear
No different from yesterday
No soul under the skin
No different from yesterday
No soul

Things will only get worse, so calm the fuck down
I can't fall asleep with these images
They won't stop stabbing my scars
I can't fall asleep
Put me to fucking sleep
I can't fall asleep
Put me to fucking sleep

I can't fall asleep
I can't... I can't fall asleep

Close your eyes and sink deeper than fear
Close your eyes and sink deeper than fear  Открыть страницу с текстом

Decisions
Visions
Keep doing what's wrong
Show that you don't belong
Cross this bridge
Burn this bridge
You will decide

Cross this bridge
Burn this bridge
Cross this bridge
Burn this bridge

Trying to hide
Don't you see what's inside?
You will decide

Decisions
Visions
Keep doing what's wrong
Show that you don't belong
Cross this bridge
Burn this bridge

You will decide
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Too scared to break free
Scared to break free from
To break free
Break free from this too
Free from this. Too scared
From this

Too scared to break free
Scared to break free from
To break free
Break free from this too
Free from this. Too scared
From this

Buried in skin. Suffocating within
Can't rip my way out without feeling the pain
How far can I abandon myself?

A new day goes by, still I'm here with no one by my side
I miss the way things were, but now I question this life
For when we die

I've been searching for far too long to find to the answers
For when we die
Too scared to break free from this
And put an end to my consciousness

Why must we leave this place behind?
Why must we leave this place behind?
How long have I been torn apart?
How long have I been torn apart?

Will a part of me exist when my blood is on floor?
Will a part of me resist when I can't take it anymore?
Do I really exist? I can't grasp this concept of reality!

Too scared to break free
Scared to break free from
To break free
Break free from this too
Free from this. Too scared
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The everlasting trauma
Has been haunting you for years
It makes you weak
Till it reveals all your fears

So are you feeling dead?
You need your old self to make the thoughts stop
Get it out of your head
You need your old self to make the thoughts stop

I can see right through
But you never knew
I wouldn't be there for you

The everlasting trauma
Has been haunting you for years
It makes you weak
Till it reveals all your fears

So are you feeling dead?
You need your old self to make the thoughts stop
Get it out of your head
You need your old self to make the thoughts stop

You want to stop, but you won't stop
Give it up
You want to stop, but you won't stop
You want to stop, but you won't stop
Give it up... Stop

You've always been weak
You'll never be free
You'll never be free
You'll never be free

You want to stop, but you won't stop
Give it up
You want to stop, but you won't stop Открыть страницу с текстом