Khonsu - The Malady

To a greater sun I travel
Away from this madness of many
I know the damage's done
And everything golden is gone

So to a greater sun I travel
For it'll only go worse
I have an urge for greater gains
A quest to leave all worldly pains

But there are darker days ahead
And when it's all black - will I know?
Is it everything else
Or me that is dead?

There are darker days coming
Walking from a debt unpaid
There are darker days coming
But I flourish in the shade

For as the fog thickens
And your shepherd is lost in the grey
The path to the summit opens
And the wolves at the bottom craves prey

Every dream a deception
Every hope a game of chance
Your fortress in the promised land
Strong as castles built in sand

But there are darker days ahead
And when it's all black - will I know?
Is it everything else
Or me that is dead?

Every dream a deception
Every hope a game of chance
Your fortress in the promised land
Strong as castles built in sand

To a greater sun I travel
Away from this madness of many
I know the damage's done
And everything golden is gone

So to a greater sun I travel
For it'll only go worse
I have an urge for greater gains
A quest to leave all worldly pains

But there are darker days ahead
And when it's all black - will I know?
Is it everything else
Or me that is dead? Открыть страницу с текстом

Abhorrence
Never meant to be in
Conformance
Sustaining discord through hateful
Resistance
Mark my fierce and ceaseless
Insistence
For I refuse to incorporate!

These somber spirits
Carrying me away
I'm bound to be the other
In sickening dismay

My remoteness and empty existence
To linger in the shadows of mankind
Watching your ignorant faces
So oblivious of my tortured mind

My tortured mind

This cold interior horror I must cultivate
It's the only way that I will persevere
Endure the pain before I self-annihilate
As the love I scorn, slowly disappear

My remoteness and empty existence
To linger in the shadows of mankind
Watching your ignorant faces
So oblivious of my tortured mind

My tortured mind

(So) I choose to turn away from human union
For those slaves of grace disgust me with their ways
Spitefully embracing cold seclusion
But never to elude this great malaise

These somber spirits
Carrying me away
I'm bound to be the other
In sickening dismay

This cold interior horror I must cultivate
It's the only way that I will persevere
Endure the pain before I self-annihilate
As the love I scorn, slowly disappear

(So) I choose to turn away from human union
For those slaves of grace disgust me with their ways
Spitefully embracing cold seclusion
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This latent wicked soul is like a frightening black hole
And it's not in my power to control
So the only way to defuse is to abuse
And the only way to cease it is to lose

Diffuse

When darkness reigns and I'm gone blind
And thoughts of torture come to mind
I crave to find the vital resolution

A fire that won't still
And an urge I just can't kill
It's a demon of my own form
With its own demonic will

When hatred reigns and I'm gone blind
And thoughts of murder come to mind
I crave to make the necessary discharge

A fire that won't still
And an urge I just can't kill
It's a demon of my own form
With its own demonic will

I'm bound to please this ugly demon's needs
Caught in the streams of fury
And even though this vicious tide recedes
It's a beast I cannot bury

When hatred reigns and I'm gone blind
And thoughts of murder come to mind
I crave to make the necessary discharge

A fire that won't still
And an urge I just can't kill
It's a demon of my own form
With its own demonic will

I'm bound to please this ugly demon's needs
Caught in the streams of fury
And even though this vicious tide recedes
It's a beast I cannot bury

This latent wicked soul is like a frightening black hole
And it's not in my power to control
So the only way to defuse is to abuse
And the only way to cease it is to lose

This beastly drive inside, is like a frightening great tide
And it's not in my power to control
So the only way to defuse is to obey
Those lively eyes won't open to another day

When darkness reigns and I'm gone blind
And thoughts of torture come to mind
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For too long I was lost
In your dark and narrow maze
Entangled by your games
And deceitful, quaint displays

Caught in your disillusions
With no means to break away
Your cold, suppressing fortress
Was a place for slow decay

Your hateful, controlling conduct
And poisonous, fierce regime
Made me coil in desperation
While I choked my frantic scream

With destructive determination
And a callous, imposing mind
You tried to claim authority
And have my world redefined

I call no man master
I am no man's slave
I refuse to let you
Delineate my way

Your powers are obsolete
Your reign is complete
I've awoken luminous
From my dazed and cloudy sleep

I call no man master
I am no man's slave
Time has come for me
To bring you to your grave

But this cold internal void
And my contemptuous nature
Reminds me that your hate
Will always be with me

And so I turn to gaze
Into that somber place
It reminds me of the days
That I can never erase

Caught in my disillusions
With no means to break away
This cold and forsaken fortress
Is a place for slow decay

My hateful, controlling conduct
And poisonous, fierce regime
Makes you coil in desperation
While you choke your frantic scream

And so I turn to gaze
Into that somber place
It reminds me of the days
That I can never erase

Never escape
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Indistincta sum vobis
Vestiti cutem hominis
Idea vitae munda
Conceptus tuos tuorum non

I'm indistinct among you
Clad in human skin
An idea refined to life
Your creation (but) not your kin

I'm a collector of demons
But my cage has no gate
So I keep them sedated
To harness their hate

I've known all along it's a failed medication
Just a small pause before their manifestation
My collection never done and complete
My path's always been to damnation

But now all my demons gathered awake
I feel this may be my final mistake
To damnation and to seal my fate
I refuse to implode as I uncage this hate

Never too late to release the hate

Amabilis insania

I've known all along it's a failed medication
Just a small pause before their manifestation
A collector of demons and my cage has no gate
I kept them inside me but it's never too late to release the hate

It's never too late
It's never too late to hate
It's never too late to release the hate

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This daunting and deathlike alteration
Is like drifting towards the open sea
Struggling to keep my head above the water
But the towering waves are overwhelming me

This profound horror is unspeakable
And no one can grab my concern
Descending into the inconceivable
With no hope of return

I see shapes of ghostlike beings
Watching me with eyes of frigid stone
The reason for their voiceless presence
And frightening demeanor is unknown

This profound horror is unspeakable
And no one can grab my concern
Descending into the inconceivable
With no hope of return

No one is able to relieve me
No one can ever set me free
Fading into nonhuman existence
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Who is this being?
What is this place
Why am I seeing
Just empty space
I must retrace

Can it be known?
Am I alone?
Or simply just erased?

How did it spawn?
My sense is gone
Could it be true
This cryptic view
That's breaking through

I must detect
And recollect
My human core

Never shall be
Never - shall - be
You'll never see
The truth behind this mystery

Never shall be
Never - shall - be
You'll never see
The revelation of reality

Something has changed
I seem estranged
Is it a vision
Of my transition
Or am I deranged?

I am aware
That this despair
Is starting to grow

This human suffering
Created by the great unknown
The universe is warping
Everyone is alone

I am not who I believe
I can't trust what I perceive
My thoughts seem to be unknown
This mind I do not own

This structure is not real
But serves to ward of chaos
This condition will not heal
For I was never here

What is this eerie vortex?
Centeredness dissolving
Why are the creations turning?
Cosmic space inverting

Can this grand curse be halted?
This downfall is your destiny
What does this omen hold?
Your private sphere collapsing into chaos!

Into chaos!
Collapsing into chaos!

I seem estranged
The stars have changed
Is it a vision
Of my transmission

Come follow me
I guarantee
Discovery
It's a journey into uncertainty

Uncertainty...

Who is this being?
What is this place?
Why am I seeing
Just empty space
Am I erased?

I seem estranged
The stars have changed
Is it a vision
Of my transmission
Or am I deranged

Will it emerge?
It's at the verge
This thing I fear
Soon to appear
It's all be becoming clear

This fathomless, cosmic change
It seems like the world is turning inside out
An untold, secret anomaly
It's a gruesome discovery

Frightening halls with blurry walls
Here comes disintegration
This strange transformation is leading
To my cruel cancellation

Where's the great maker
The leading force
Supreme creator
The purest source
Will it be known?

Come follow me
I guarantee
Discovery

What is this eerie vortex?
Centeredness dissolving
Why are the creations turning?
Cosmic space inverting

Can this grand curse be halted?
This downfall is your destiny
What does this omen hold?
Your private sphere collapsing into chaos!

This fathomless, cosmic change
It seems like the world is turning inside out
An untold, secret anomaly
It's a gruesome discovery

Frightening halls with blurry walls
Here comes disintegration
This profound transformation is leading
To my cruel cancellation Открыть страницу с текстом