Sad - Beyond The Great Suffering

Blind my eyes so i I cannot see
What else the future holds for me
Deafen my ears so I cannot hear
The moral preaching of those who fear
Their almighty lord,so far but so near

I only need my voice to roar
To all those who seem to ignore
That their morals abstract the freedom
In order to gain the "heavenly kingdom"

Burn my body and scatter the ashes
My spirit will be like a thousand lashes
Before my existence in oblivion be vanished
Your fearful hearts will be eagerly punished

Always felt I was alone
Among the vast human crowd
Never felt the need of a companion
In the long cold journey of knowledge

Only mine is what I loose
Only mine is what I gain
Alone I walk the dark paths
Alone I take the wrong turn
Alone I find my way

I don't want any guidance
From those that think they have
All the right answers
And the ancient hidden wisdom

Only mine is what I loose
Only mine is what I gain
Alone I walk the dark paths
Alone I take the wrong turn
Alone I find my way

No religions
No mentors
No mystic orders
No god
No Satan

Hear me out
Hear my cry
I've been through hell
I am in hell
My mind is blowing
My body exploding
My heart is slashed

I can't recall
when it started
I'm not sure
if it's over
I really doubt
there is an end

My mind is blank
All around black
My ears pounding
My blood is dripping

I've been through hell
I am in hell
My soul is the prey
of the great vulture

How can this stop?
Is there an end?
My spirit is crushed
I feel possessed
by my own evil

I've been through hell
I am in hell
Can I hope?
What is to hope?
Oblivion only

Behold my fragmented existence
Lurking at the edge of nothingness

A time will come when the sun won't rise

And it will be dark
And it will be cold

The time will come for the end of light

And there will be famine
And there will be death

A time will come when no colours will be

And everything's black
And chaos returns

The time is near for the eternal night

I'm trying to find my way out
Eager no more to live
Frustration has overcome me
Darkened my skies forever

Relieve me
Take away the pain
Release me
Free me from my carnal cage
Death be my redeemer

Nothing can ease my mind
Madness is crawling inside me
Nothing excites my senses
Apathy has taken over me

Relieve me
Take away the pain
Release me
Free me from my carnal cage
Death be my redeemer

Nothing but black in my sight
I can hear the devouring maggots
The stench of rot is growing
But my soul is a disillusioned raven

Relieved I am
The pain is taken away
Released I am
I'm free from my carnal cage
Death is my redeemer

It's just a figure in the shades
Barley seen by those who stare
It makes no sound a man can hear
It's only lurking in the dark

Just a few can feel it's presence
Only some children and the insane
But no one wants to speak about it
It's only lurking in their hearts

It's moving without walking
Like the breeze in an autumn night
But there is no destination for it
It's only lurking beyond space

Unchanged as years are passing by
Not sure if there was a beginning
Certain that there will be no end
It's only lurking beyond time

It's drifting through space and time
In a perpetual itinerancy to nowhere
It has just a spark of conscience
Enough to feel that it's cursed

The moon is full and high

The hooded figures are walking
One by one, at the crest of the hill

No wind is blowing tonight
The nightbirds are mute

The robed ones are now descending
With torches in hand, down the kluf

The leafs of the trees are freezed
Even the shadows seem to be still

Now that they have reached the glade
One by one, they are forming a circle

The silence is broken by chanting whispers
Mystic symbols are drawned on the ground

Ancient words are spoken
From languages forgotten
Some to be praised
Some to be cursed
Tonight is the night of the gathering

True evil lies in the hearts of the children.

They deride the ugly
They segregate the different
'Cause true evil lies in the hearts of the children

They beat the weak
They steal from each other
'Cause true evil lies in the hearts of the children

They have no regrets,they don't back off
They manipulate you,they do only what please them
'Cause true evil lies in the hearts of the children

They follow only their primitive instincts
Only when social rules are dominated to them,
They behave socially correct

All emotions and all instincts are pure in the children
And when evil lurks in their hearts,it's pure evil
That's why pure evil lies in the hearts of the children
True evil lies in the hearts of the children

When they grow up and enter society this change
Sometimes it doesn't.