Et Mors - Drastic Side Effects

There's some things they don't tell you about when you're younger
Things you can't be prepared for
Like the first time someone you love dies
And the realization you'll never see them again
But that first time is cloaked in naivety
You're there thinking it's not a normal part of life
Only later do you realize the absurdity
That is the sandglass of time

And as I age my insomnia only grows worse and worse
As the years pass into psychosis further and further I fall
I fear there's no saving me
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Well, you're my friend
(that's what you told me)
And can you see?
(what's inside of me)

Many times we've been out drinking
So many times we've shared our thoughts
But did you ever, ever notice
The kind of thoughts I got?
'Cause you know I have a love
A love for everyone I know
And you've seen I have a drive
To live I won't let go
But can you see it's opposition
Comes rising up sometimes
That it's dreadful end position
Comes blacking in my mind

And that I see a darkness
And that I see a darkness
That I see a darkness
That I see a darkness
Did you know how much I love you
Is there hope that somehow you
Could save me from this darkness?

I hope that someday, buddy
We'll have peace in our lives
Together or apart
Alone or with our wives
Then we can stop our whoring
And pull the smiles inside
And light it up forever
And never go to sleep
My best unbeaten brother
This isn't all I see

Oh no, I see a darkness
Oh no, I see a darkness
Oh, no, I see a darkness
Oh, no, I see a darkness
Did you know how much I love you?
Is a hope that somehow you
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Begone you witch
For you've risen
Spirits of past
That which I can't banish
Weak were the spells
I cast in defense
The effect you had
Made me not want to live
Live
Life
Gone
Dead

And born from this pain
Some clarity to existence
And how trusting brings
The noose no resistance
Now each invocation
Conjures my decline

The cycle
And the cosmos
Return us
To the grave

The future
So dismal
Without magick
To be saved

No conjuration
Or wizard
Could help us
To heal the world

Our decisions
Bewitch it
And damn us
To make the world fall

How I welcome
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The world turns
The regrets cheer
For our weeping
They rejoice
In the coffin
Full of fear
There's a movement
They're still there

Long after
They gaze upon you
A new chapter
And still they will remain
All matter
Has never been the same
The strongest laughter
Comes from the greatest pain

The distant beauty
In all its despair
Erased now
Replaced with greed
In the coffins
Placed in dirt
They mock the earth
We're still here

Dissolving matter
You think your life
Is some reflection
Of god, or what you believe
All my remains
Will be scattered
All over the ground
I'll be back where I've came

Our memories keep
Reminding us
Our keepers know
The life
We'll never see
As we grow old
Through all the change
I can't go back
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For how long I was lost
It felt like only seconds passed

Fuck.

I've slowly come to terms
I can't go on
Our paths were crossed & cursed
With bridges built to burn

The same thing that hurts so good
Reminds me of my worth

Release what's turned to bone
It's my fault for loving you

Away
All down & out
Remain here
With the vision lost
You always
Were a part of the dream
I can't remember
Never meant it seems

How
I thought you my world
Everything
I misunderstood
You're
Always part of my world
Everything
Reminds me of you

Some place
I've been here I thought
Long ago
I'd like to remember not
Can't sleep
This image never fades
Though colors in the vision
Change to lifeless grey

Don't let me hear you say
That you love me
When all my days are grey
And I'll never be the same
I can't even say
that I loved you
If I could watch decay
And I'll never feel that pain

I'll share my dream
All over the world
With the memory
Spoke in my words
I'll hold your hand
And crush it to bits
But you had your purpose
Like christ's crucifix

Onward.

I'm so ashamed
of how things went
I wasn't me
Nor were you
Time away
Should make us happy
Well nothing's changed
We're suffering
I broke your wings
I'm guilty
I'm sorry
I miss you
Time can't bring
Healing
I'll miss you
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